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Sunday, November 4, 2012 I'm collapsing soon. I'm falling anytime. I have suppressed myself for too long, I feel like I'm breaking apart mentally. You are treating me like nothing. The way you insult me, the way you call me names, the way you scolded me. I cried, it me my problem. You know how hard it is for me to put down my pride and cry infront of you? But I was called names or told off. I know I have always been strong. But is this the reason you can say all these to me? I'm a very sensitive girl.. I get hurt so easily. But you have to hurt me like this? Your words are killer. Throughout this r/s, all I rmb is how bad how bitchy how useless how worthless, how stingy, how a liar Im to you. I have been consistently reminded by you. Everyday you will do all these and shoot me all these. Im constantly reminded about myself. I wannt be tht confident girl too. But you know why I'm always so inferior? Always scared of losing you to other girls? Always praising other girls? Its all because of your words. You always tell me how bad Im, how fucked up Im. How you wish you can throw me away. I'm .... hurt.. I really tied to pull myself through everything. I always try to remind myself I'm still a beautiful girl.. I'm worth living.. But I always lose myself halfway. I'm not worth it. I wish I can just walk away and never look back. Just make myself happy but not drowning in my sorrows every single night, crying myself to sleep. Crying is my new leisure, I just wished to be alone by my own. I wanna walk away and nv look back. Can I do it? Penning down; 12:11 AM |