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Sunday, July 8, 2012 The end. Chances and chances. All the chances I gave you, you threw them away. I have been suffering and acting everything is okay all these while. I'm suffocating inside. You repeat those mistakes over and over again. I always tell myself leave it. Just leave every single shits you threw to me. I took them. I swallowed them. No matter how I throw my temper I succumbed to you every single time. Not this time anymore.. I have been trying too hard for too long. It has been too long too bumpy for me. Problems, in a r/s there are two of us here to face them tgt solving them one by one. Yet, you chose to run away. Running away from these problems and leaving me in the lurch. Yeah, perhaps I should see all these coming. You knew my ex treated me this way and I was devastated. I swear that I don't want to experience all these anymore again. I found you. I thought you wouldn't, well I thought. I guess I'm just bad at analysing people. I 'm wrong, utterly wrong. You ran away, leaving me alone. Crying in the middle of the night have always been the routine, it's sad to say I'm used to it. Repeating the heartaches, I took them silently. I thought you would change. I gave in... Then again, you repeat and said the same thing expecting me to let it go. Ask yourself how many times have all these shits been happening? You trampled my love and worries over and ove again. Through 11months, I'm so scarred, bruised everywhere. My heart is no longer burning, I couldn't feel the way I should be. Loving someone is so hard. Yet, being a fool I fell into it over and over again. I wanna leave.. I'm determined to leave. I need help but I know who would be there for me? Friends? I don't trust them... I dont believe in friends. I dont believe in love anymore either. Penning down; 11:01 PM |