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Saturday, November 5, 2011 Wow. Everything has come to an end too quickly. Yes, I asked it upon myself. No one to blame, no one to hate. I guess I'm just too clingy and sensitive. But well, most of the time I was playing a fool with you. You just took it for real. And at times, your jokes I took it for real. So, will this balance out? No I guess. Restrictions. Yes, I restricted too much. I totally know this. Still to say, I'm just to dominating. That's my nature. I'm slowly learning to give you your own time to do whatever you like. I'm learning.. Just that it takes alittle effort everytime to persuade myself. Yet, you were sick of it. I dont blame you. My head is aching so badly now, same goes to my throat. Incessantly crying over this and that is just making me dying slowly. Looks like cycle repeats. It still hurts me badly. So badly... I dont regret being with you all these while, it will just take me more courage to stand up again. How long will it take this time? one year? Two year? Three year? Or mayb four? Well, mayb forever. Because in love we know one day we will definitely get hurt, or mayb just to me. I knew it all along. But you were the one that held me up and bring to love again. You gave me the courage to believe again. Now, my courage is gone, my support is gone. Here, all alone. Back to square one, left with nothing. I just dont wanna stand up anymore. Too many failures, too many broken heart. Just give me all the time to heal myself. Like, I wasn't perfect to start with. I'm filled with too many flaws, that you could hardly see my good points. Yes.... I will just vanish from this world, somewhere nobody could find me. A place where I could have myself only. Penning down; 5:18 PM |