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Monday, September 26, 2011 What if. My life is full of happenings. I tried to stay positive here. Yet, why? Why must there always be things that hold me back, to crash on me? Just as I thought everything is okay. I realise it's not. Was is true that if I didn't fall into this, I would be happier? Why cant we be truthful and honest to one another? Why must there be lies to cover every misdoings? Why? Isn't trust and being honest the basic essential in a relationship? Why must you hide it? I asked myself countless time. Is there somethings that I've missed? Thinking back, I finally thought it through why you wanted to let me go and didn't wanted to be back tgt. Temptations is the source. My world went crumbling down when I saw the words wrote by you. It really hurts me, it really crushed me. I wanted to tell you and show you how hurt it is to see someone you have just went through bad time with and loving alittle bit more each time to blurt such 'words'. This is the worst thing. This is the worst feeling. The words are stabbing me right into my heart. Killing me a million times. I knew I wasn't good enough. I knew I wasn't real to start with. But I have to beg you, dont play with me, dont cheat on me. If you wanna go with someone, tell me I will let you go. I will step back and grant you. Just don't abuse my trust. I will choose to forget. I will choose to move on with you. I'm weak. No matter how raging I'm, I will go back eventually. I'm lost. I'm scared. I realise.. things weren't that simple. I really scared..... What am I suppose to do now? How much do you actually love me? Or is it that you dont love me in the first place? Penning down; 10:41 PM |