Car.

Breaking.

Life is fragile. Love is brittle. Trust is little.
Why?
We born to see the world. We born to experience it. We born to live it.
Why?

We have to see ppl leaving to realise the importance of life. Treasure.
Is it human's instinct to take it as an advantage? We know how conspicious it is to us.
Yes, we know clearly. Yet, every route we take we chose to ignore it.
How, how can we learn?

Stages of a human life is typical. It's the ups and downs that make us be who we are.
That makes everyone of us different.
Why can't we just be who we are now? Why must there be a need to metamorphose our life, characters, needs to the eye of others?
Lookers and seekers nv understand the truth within. It's the appearance that affects all.
How about friends? Family? Or lover?
How true is your friends? How willing is your family? How faithful is your lover?

Weakest point for me is my family. I love them alot.
I need them most of the time. I'm stubborn, my acts are execrable at times but all I needed was more attention.
I know, I know I'm going 17 alr. I've to grow up. But I really wanted to go back in time. To find the true-self.
When I was 9, I've to be on my own. I wake up myself, facing the solitary four walls.
At times, I cry in the night or as I woke up in the morning when I couldn't find any of you.
I know, I know, you all are busy. But I was 9, how strong could I stay?
Yet, I know I have to regain my composure infront of you all. I told myself, that's what I could do for you all.
Going through a whole of 16 years of my life, I know family is still the strongest tie of all.
No matter how bad it could be, but deep in us, we know family is the home of our heart.
It's where our true-self belongs.

Unlike friends or love.
To me, love is just a game of game. Ppl said it's a game of trust, but what I realise and thought it doesn't really lies on trust to break everything apart.
So what if trust is unbreakable within you and your lover? Would you gurantee that he/she won't go out of control? They would be as faithful as you think? No, it's all feigned.
Ya, you trusted. But what do you gain? Heartbreaks.
It's just reality. And life still goes on.
Seriously, how much does trust worth? It could be used as a lie to keep you going.
What's within would exactly be the worst truth you would face.
Nobody adores to face the truth, to see it or to forsee it.
That's human nature. But that wouldbe the least we could do, to be hurt so soon.
So, love is like a thrilling game of game.
You wanted to join it. But you would nv foresees that this game you're stepping into, is the the preparation of the next game. It's just love and healing process...

I can't get myself out of this game. I can't no matter how hard I tried.
Is it just a habit to love you? Sometimes I wonder. Is it me, who love the feeling of having someone who cares, love, concern about me? Or is it the so-called of couldn't let go?
I don't seems to achieve much in this game. I couldn't understand how it works.
It sucks, very badly.

Please, let this feeling go. I need to get a life of my own.